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God Rox
ahhh man where to begin! seriously this year has been totally awesome faith wise (and just about eveyrthing else wise, still need my first kiss before i turn 18 loljk) though seriously.... i have been struggling a lot in trying to understand my faith and God better, and i have found so many places where i can talk about it all its such a blessing! and well its the good kind of struggle i htink, even though i try to understand everything a bit too much sometimes. God is Good!
Tonight we prayed again as a family, we hadnt done that for a very long time, and of course at first i didnt really want to and would have prefered to play an other game of boggle (didnt win todya thats not supposed to happen ;-) ) anyways we did and as we prayed the rosary bunch of question kept bumping in and well it was quite a fight (thats how its been at mass lately and it is seriously tireing and energy draining) after we were done, i started asking question, why do we do this why do we do that.... and all, and my parents, little sis, and i started having this awesome huge discussion on God, and the Catholic faith! man this was such an awesome feeling! i have such a great family and holy parents, seriously! it blows my mind! what did i do to deserve them seriously?! i couldnt have fallen into a better family! its beautiful! it makes it so much harder to see broken families!!!! man i m about to cry... i feel just so overwhelmed....
And also seeing as i ahve been hanging out with New Life, and makes me wonder about the differences between Catholics and Protestants or "Christians" but i think its making me want to learn even more about my faith, and i see how much they are missing! i dont want to sound bad or anything, or as if Catholics have all the answers. but we have the Eucharist, the True presence of Christ and we can recieve him inside of us every day if we want! I dunno but God from a Catholic persepective seems so much Bigger! its hard to explain or even put into words, the best i can say is that God is God! He can do anything and everything, he is so much more than just our own heavenly friend! and the saints are such a blessing to have aroudn! for the last few weeks i kept wondering why do we pray to the saints and all and blablabla, but they are so awesome! they know God so much more than we do they are so much closer to Him than we are, they can intercide for us in so many ways. and its just like when they were alive they performed miracle and they still do, though it all comes from God obviously. Sometimes is just seems too good to be true, and alsmost like a fairy story, but when u thinnk about it some many stories ahve used the Christian faith to tell their own stories. hum that probably made no sense, but heck i know what i am saying.
Man i WANT to be holy! I want to live a holy life, i want to stay pure and chaste and a virgin until my wedding night, and want to take God, Faith, and Life seriously!!! i WANT to make a difference in the world, and want to do what i was put on the earth to do what ever that may be!!! man writting all this down feels so good because i know it in my heart but to write it all down makes it seem so much more real!
I really need to go get sleep i have a final tomorrow... not a big one but still i need to get to school early.... woowo!
so thank you all of you how are in my life, i feel sooooooo blessed!! and thank you God for my family and the people you have put in my life, i could never have asked for more or better or even dream of better!
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