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Hey, everybody!
man i havent updated in a really long time and well lots have happened!
I m still working as an assistant and they just added to my hours which is really good because now i have a car payment to pay.... (funny thin is that just before they did that (adds about $200 to my paycheck per month) i was stressing about not having enough money for my car and stuff like that, and then this comes, that really taught me to trust in God more, i dont enough, but man i want to and i want to get closer to Him so much, i just dont seem to be putting the effort in, i need to try harder) i got a car about a month ago, my old one died (worse &$4,000 in repair and $2,000 to sell, so we just said never mind...) its a blue toyota corolla 2003 i like toyotas they last a long time! and the first week i had it, the check engine sign came up and i slipped on ice and had to have the tires all changed and realigned.... but now its all good, man i can tell you just the word car was getting stressful!
school (to become a montessori teacher) is hard, but i m really enjoying the work so its good, its a bit stressful too since the class is only once a week with lots to do for the rest of the week. I m also th eyoungest (18) then its 25, 32, 42, etc... so its a bit hard i feel a bit underestimated at times but everyone is just really nice.
my nephew walks! i m going to see him this after noon so thats cool, and my nieces too, alice (3 and a half) decided that should could do other things with her hair then just two braids (been with braids for a year) emma (2 and a half) decided she could wear dresses (had refused to put a dress on for a year, and was forced for xmas and it was dramatic) so yea kids are nuts i think thats why i love them!
This last week was very emotional though, i mean major pmsing, and getting panick attacks again last night so very little sleep i just got.... i m taking omega 3 and they help fantasticly with my attacks but i ran out and ordered the wrong thing so i wont have them again until beginning of next week (perfect timing to not have them right when i need them the most during pms)but what it is is just fish... seriously! its cool, its the equivalent of me eating fish everyday for everymeal, i guess there is something in the fishes that helps stay balanced or something i dunno the whole stuff but i know it works and taht its not nasty chemicals the doctors always proscribe (the tried to put me on the pill for my panick attacks a year or two agao, stupid doctors) but anyways i m having a hard time accepting that i have panick attacks i keep looking at it as a weakness and its driving me crazy, cause im just so happy always usually. anyways just trying to deal with this... plus no body was home last night so i dont think that helped, darn it i m 18 and i usually love being by myself, anyways i just have to work at it i think and i ll be fine. So after class today (in denver) i m ognna go see my sister and parents who are all up in denver go to mass with them see my nieces/nephew and go home, dont even feel like going back down to the springs by myself. aaaa man, i ll figure it all out eventually.and i think i m going to be very tired today, oh well, i hope we dont get too much homework
but i have to go now and leave for school or i ll be late, so thanks for hearing the rant/vent out, and i need to draw more and work on my art course that i m doing too (by mail, and i havent worked on it for a good week)
love u guys and see u around i hope!
moi
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